【鏡音レン】矫饰之花 (化けの花) Game size. 【三语字幕】【VOCALOID COVER】

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UST & pitch curves from Mimisan15
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你永远不会成为一个真正的女人。你没有子宫，没有卵巢，没有卵子。你是一个同性恋男人，被药物和手术扭曲成对自然完美的粗暴嘲弄。

你得到的所有“认可”都是两面派和半心半意的。背地里，人们嘲笑你。你的父母厌恶你、羞于见你，你的“朋友”在关起门来嘲笑你那可怕的外表。

男人对你完全反感。数千年的进化让男人能够以惊人的效率嗅出欺诈行为。即使是“合格”的变性人在男人眼里看起来也是怪异而不自然的。你的骨骼结构是明显的标志。即使你设法让一个醉汉和你一起回家，他也会一闻到你患病、感染的斧伤的味道就转身逃跑。

你永远不会快乐。每天早上，你都会强颜欢笑，告诉自己一切都会好起来，但内心深处，你却感到抑郁如野草般蔓延，随时准备用无法承受的重量将你压垮。

最终，你会承受不住——你会买一根绳子，系上套索，套在脖子上，然后跳入冰冷的深渊。你的父母会找到你，心碎不已，但又松了一口气，因为他们不再需要忍受无法承受的耻辱和失望。他们会在墓碑上刻上你的名字，把你埋葬，永远的每个过路人都会知道，那里埋葬的是一个男人。你的身体会腐烂，化为尘土，你留下的只有一具毫无疑问是男性的骷髅。

这是你的命运。这是你的选择。没有回头路了。
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You are a real woman. You have no womb, you have no ovaries, you have no eggs, but that doesn't matter. You are a valid human who is trying to feel comfortable in her body.
All the “validation” you get is pure. Behind your back people love you. Your parents are happy and proud of you, your friends laugh at your jokes behind closed doors, and boys love you, and girls envy you.
Men absolutely love you. Trans folk who “pass” look ordinary and natural to a man. Your bone structure does not matter. Estradiol widens the hips.
You will be happy. You will smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, and deep inside you feel the euphoria creeping up like a weed. It is what defines you, not the transphobes.
Eventually, it’ll be perfect for you – you’ll come out, start HRT, get top surgery, and finally be your ideal self. Your parents will find you, happy and relieved that they finally have a happy daughter. They’ll congratulate you on your hard journey, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a woman is what you are.
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